Is there anybody there? #2 Little One

Little Miss Young lady Pretty little thing Sexy little thing Bad girl Any combination of the above, she answers to all. Is this attraction?  Fuck, I have been missing out my whole life. Is it called chemistry because it burns you?  You have to be careful with chemical sets. So this one, Little One, 23 […]

Alchemy

It wasn’t her. She didn’t inspire me to be a lesbian. She didn’t turn me into a lesbian. She didn’t encourage me to be a lesbian. She didn’t make me a lesbian. I was a lesbian already. I recognised her gayness when I didn’t even consciously know what I was recognising. She did no damn […]

Androgyny got me

My first girl had a pure gold ring on a lip that is not on her face. She wore only one earring on one ear, as if she could somehow have known that I find that Bowie-style wolfishness sexy beyond scale. We had our first kiss to Bowie’s Lady Grinning Soul…sung by a woman. I […]

Love is just friendship

Love I don’t think it’s: grasping clinging worrying feeling entitled (to love itself or to a relationship) feeling like you need that person otherwise life is unbearable (yes we’ve all been there) insecurity validation or the search thereof possession Love I think it’s: reciprocal caring sharing time (yeah it’s a cliche and cliches came into […]

I trust myself

That’s always been hard for me to say because it’s been hard for me to believe, to feel, to embody. Am I the only person to check six times that I’ve switched off the gas before going to bed?  I know that it’s off.  I know that it’s safe.  Yet there’s an imp in my […]

Absolute beginners…

Last summer I meditated.  A lot.  I’m still doing it from time to time.  Who knew that just sitting there could transform you inside out and back again.  Whatever that is inside me, it’s still vibrating. Is it? I was brought up with baby boomer parents.  Quelle surprise, given my date of birth. They’re somewhat […]